At nine years old

When your child is turning 9 you expect to be planning a party, a celebration of their life. A day of  presents and fun. A day of remembering stories from their earlier years and laughing. You expect to be picking out party clothes, party food, and all the little extra touches of things they love.

When your child is turning 9 you do not expect to be special ordering a pink casket. Thinking about what outfit she will be laid to rest in. You should not be thinking about their earlier years and weeping because that's all it will ever be.

Today I had to tell my 9 year old that her best friend past away yesterday, 2 days before her 9th birthday. I had to ask if she would like to attend her remembrance celebration to release pink balloons in her honor instead of her birthday party. I had to look into her confused, heart broken eyes and try to answer the question I had no response to, Why does a soon to be 9 year old die.

I've been so heartbroken for her family. No parent should ever have to bury their child, no matter the child's age. Its so hard with someone so young and full of life. I'm hugging my babies a little tighter tonight, telling them a few hundred extra times that I love them. I'm letting the small petty annoyances go because I realize just how quickly your life can change.

I know in the past I have ranted about the school Emmy goes to but I was pleased that the school called to tell me what had happened. Emmy's friends sister was worried about how Emmy was handling things. I have cried all evening. I just can't wrap my brain around this.


  1. I'm so sorry for Emmy's loss. And for the girl's family, I'm thinking of them and you.

    1. Thank you. I am just a wreck over this. I sent her dad an email telling him how sorry we are and I lost it again when he told me to hug Em tight. I just can't wrap my brain around it.

  2. this is horrible, I am so sorry to hear that :(

  3. this is when I begin to question things. Why do people so young have to die that young? They haven't graduated yet, haven't lived life. Does that mean she's lived to her purpose and God brought her home to be with him?


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