Weight on me

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I have been saying everyday for months years about needing to lose weight. I have a few problems.
  1. I am lazy and stand exercise.
  2. I like food especially bad or you food....Dr Pepper might as well be my blood. Talk about empty calories. 1 can is 150 calories. I drink about 6 a day.
  3. Did I mention I am lazy?
It doesn't help that dad has been in the hospital for 6 weeks. Dinner and some days all meals are take out. I didn't realize just how much weight I've gained until I saw this pic.

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No I am not pregnant but I look about 6 months. I currently weigh 130 pounds. I didn't even weigh this when I was delivering my children. When I graduated high school I weighed 95 pounds. Which sounds like nothing but remember I am only 4'10.

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Back in my swimming days...I miss this body.
I have decided something needs to happen. I've charted my food intake for several days using the myfitnesspal app. I discovered I eat between 1400-1800 calories a day. Most of this is Dr pepper. Its like crack to me. For some reason I can't stand diet Dr. pepper so I end up drinking a ton of empty calories. Some goals I have set for myself is.
  1.  limit Dr. Pepper to 2 cans a day
  2. Start walking, starting with 1 mile a day
  3. limit calories to 1400 a day
  4. Blog weekly about my weight loss
  5. readjusting this plan as needed.
The whole thing makes me feel like this.....

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My life according to Metallica

I'm still spending most of my free time at the hospital visiting my dad. We are hoping to be transferred to a hospital that does lung rehab and has staff that specialize in weaning patients off the vent. I don't want to go into details until I know for sure that we have have a bed in this facility But please keep us in your prayers.

I need a little stress relief. I found some old notes I had saved on my facebook page so tonight you get to see....my life according to Metallica.

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.

Pick Your Artist: Metallica

Are you a male or female: Mama Said

Describe yourself: Better than You

How do you feel: Stone Cold Crazy

Describe where you currently live: The Frayed Ends of Sanity

If you could go anywhere, where would you go: Wherever I May Roam

Your favorite form of transportation: ride the lightning

Your best friend is: Hero of the Day

You and your best friends are: Frantic

What's the weather like: ...And Justice for All

Favorite time of day: Enter Sandman

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called? Whiplash

What is life to you: Sad but True

Your fear: hit the lights

What is the best advice you have to give: Jump in the Fire

Thought for the Day: So What

How I would like to die: I Disappear

My soul's present condition: Am I Evil?

My motto: Nothing Else Matters

Your favorite color is: Blackened

You know that:Tuesday's Gone

If you could change your name, what would it be?: Sweet Amber

Something you are looking forward to: Crash Course in Brain Surgery

High Five For Friday

I haven't done this in awhile. So I thought since I've had some good news this week I needed to celebrate.

1. My dad has had 2 days of improvements. I don't know how his Broncoscopy went today. It is his third and I don't think his lung dr was happy about doing another one, but yesterdays blood gas test and his Xray showed some improvement. He's still on a Vent but everyday we cherish the small improvements. I fully believe this is from all the prayers. Thanks to everyone who has stopped to pray for him.

2. Yesterday was Emmy's bday. I finally let her in to see dad and she told him she was there and that was about it. Its still scary for all of us so I can imagine its scary for them too.

3. My sister found the sweetest little long haired black cat outside the hospital. I wanted to keep it but with three cats and one being pregnant and a dog, I think maybe we have enough pets. (I could totally be an animal hoarder)

4. I bought some new tennis shoes. I have decided that once dad is out of the hospital that I will start a couch to 5k program. I have become too sedentary and I hate that. They are cute Grey and hot pink New Balance. I should add I usually hate tennis shoes. I gave a pair away when I moved because I had them since before my oldest child was born (the child about to be a teenager) But these are super comfy.
5. I just realized that FB has a notes section. I am sure I must have known this once upon a time because I found about 20 notes that were hysterical. I think I just found blog material to last me a while.

I'm linking up with

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A baby story

With everything going on with dad I haven't even been able to think about the post I wanted to write for today.

Today is Emmy's birthday. I can't believe that my sweet baby is 9. Believe me I do not look old enough to have a 9 year old (and in 4 weeks I won't look old enough to have a teenager either)

9 years ago (last night) I started to go to bed about 11 and as soon as I laid down I felt a pop and a gush of fluid. I had to have my water broken with Abbey so I was a little freaked out about this. I took a shower and started calling family and my husband at the time and I headed to the hospital with our almost 4 year old in tow.

I had to refill out papers I had already filled out to admit me (keep in mind I am dripping fluid despite the fact that I put a pad on). It really makes me wonder if they don't keep up with the forms or what because that was a waste of time. Then they told me to wait in the waiting room. Finally after the puddle under me got to be pretty big, I asked for a towel or something to clean it up. Its like they just realized then that I have been leaving a trail. They rushed me into an exam room and examined me and determined yes my water had broken. I think maybe they thought I couldn't stop peeing on myself. Anyway Abbey couldn't go back with us (even though I wanted her to) and Mike had to stay with her until family came. I went to the L&D room alone. They hooked me up to monitors and the monitors didn't work. So we changed rooms and hooked me up to different monitors. I am still having no contractions. Maybe just a twinge hear and there. I watch some crappy tv since it is the middle of the night.

The nurse said they wanted to start pitocin and I refused. You'll hear more about this evil drug in a few weeks for Abbey's birth story. Long story short its a terrible drug that is suppose to speed the process along. (for the record Emmy with no pitocin was 4 hours. Abbey with pitocin was 18 hours). I did ask for an epidural because I was scared about the pain....even though I really wasn't having any. I am kind of a wimp.

A few minutes after the epidural I felt ill. Like going to puke ill. I remembered feeling this way with abbey during the transition period. I asked for a bucket and well I'll not describe the rest. The nurse checked me and I was ready to push. I had no dr and no husband in the room with me. My dr assumed since Abbey was 18 hours that we had a little more time. So a resident and nurse caught Emmy and my husband made it in the room right before she was born. After just a couple of pushes Emmy was born on 4/4/4 at 4:44 am (thanks to the time change that night)

She was red and wrinkled and had scratched her face all up but I thought she was sooo sweet and adorable with fat little cheeks. Her big sister was so in love with her that she talked my dad and sister into going to the store and buying her a birthday cake. Which Abbey ate a piece for her since she couldn't have cake yet.

I wish I had baby pics this computer maybe I can add them later.

Update on Dad

A week ago today...at this moment even. My sister called to say my dad was missing. He had apparently been out running errands and someone saw noticed he seemed confused and disoriented. They called my sister. That's a call that either saved his life or postponed his death. That's still up in the air. My sister went home to check on him, he wasn't there. She called me and we ran through a list of possibilities on where he may be. A friend said he had been there and that he mentioned going to walmart. My sister saw him sitting in the walmart parking. She said his lips were blue he was falling asleep while talking to her. She and his sister forced him into the car and made him go to the nearest hospital. They put him on a vent and that's how he has been every since.

They have done 2 broncoscopy's to get the fluid and mucus out. both procedures worked well. But he is still producing a lot. His right lung is raw and infected. I'm stressed to the max. He is in a hospital almost 2 hours from where I work and an hour from where I live.

My sister and I have no idea what bills he has or how to access his checking account so new we just received a debit card that needs activated. This has made me learn the hard way about getting your bills and info in order in case of emergencies. As soon as 99.9% of all my focus isn't on this I will talk about my system for managing bills.
I would greatly appreciate prayers that is right lung begins to heal and we are able to wean him off of the vent. Thanks
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